Sunday, October 25, 2009

It is Over

First off, thanks so very much to the many sweet people who left me such encouraging remarks.
I am so grateful for your kindness to me. I love having people in my life!

Now, here is my race day report.
The day was a big one.
It wasn't entirely the day I had hoped for, though it started out very well.
I was up at 4:30, eating breakfast at 6AM, then on a yellow schoolbus heading to the US border and then Buffalo at 7am, stuck at the border until 9AM because a Swede and two Englishmen did not have proper credentials.
Before the race started, all runners were well cared for in the warmth of the elegant Albright Knox Gallery, so we got to look at some beautiful works of art while we stretched and hydrated.
The race started a 10AM, on a sparkling clear morning.
Starting out, I felt very well, and it was a perfect day, and all indications were positive.
So I bounced along doing OK, shedding fleece jacket and gloves as the day got quite surprisingly warm. It was a spectacularly beautiful day.
And I was in the company of some really fun, friendly and very entertaining women.
Things were looking good.
We ran around Buffalo for awhile, and were well protected by the charming Buffalo Police and some wildly enthusiastic onlookers.
We ran across the Peace Bridge, which must have caused some delays and irritation for quite a number of border crossers, but it was no trouble at all for us. Nothing like the white-knuckle terror I had built it up to be in my mind.
Then we ran out to Fort Eerie, and headed up along the parkway which would take us all the way to Niagara.....just gorgeous on this perfect colorful warm fall day.

Now, you may or may not have read what I said in an earlier post ("Drawing Lines in the Sand"), about my right hip and the prospect that this marathon would cause me to lose the use of that joint.
I fully expected that my hip would do me the courtesy of hanging in there for me until the race was done. But it did not.
At mile 18, after a bit of minor discomfort (I love that word.....it is the medical term for "pain") I felt/heard my hip pop out of it's proper spot in the socket, as it has done once or twice before. Sometimes I am able to pop it right back in if I baby it a bit...so,
I walked and ran with it like that for two miles.
But at mile 20 or so, when I had a very clear view of the finish area across the water, my leg stopped swinging forward. I was praying and trying to think of everything that has ever helped me before. I know that getting on a bike and pedalling for a mile or so often sets it right where it should be, and I nearly grabbed a passing cyclist at one point. But getting on a bicycle in the middle of a race is cheating.

I was trying to move it forward, but the medical guy at mile 20 (or mile 23, according to Carrie's comment......) water stop pulled me aside and very warmly and kindly encouraged me to get some help. I don't know what his name was, but he was such a patient and considerate man, as I was kind of arguing with him that I could see the finish, and would like to just walk there. I could see the mist rising from the falls, it looked so close! The worst part was that I cried. I hate crying in public, I just wanted to kick myself, but my leg was useless.

Here is the heartbreak.....I went off and got my hip rubbed and iced, and afterward, I was able to walk OK. And I think I could have done those last miles at that point, but I was out of the race, and it was all over.

The interesting thing, at least to me, is the fact that I ran exactly to the point to which I had trained. I missed those long runs at the end of my training when I wasn't quite well, as I talked about in a sad post a couple of weeks ago. I had not run beyond 20 miles, and that's where my old body just stopped yesterday. It was all quite predictable.

{That means that if I get all the training runs in for June, I will have no trouble finishing.
So, that's my plan.}

I don't feel very inspirational today, but I do enjoy the great support I have received from lots of people. My family was just awesome, and so encouraging and positive.
And my precious mother and father in law even called me, at nearly midnight Norway time, to see how I had done. I thought that was the second nicest part of the day.
The very sweetest thing though, was seeing Jon and the kids craning their necks looking for me to cross the finish, because they expected me to do that. And when I came upon them from behind and told them my sad tale, they were so enthusiastic and supportive. They are such a gift to me.

9 comments:

xinme said...

Oh, Missy -- I'm sad that you're sad, but still SOOOOOOO proud of your accomplishments!!!!! Even your sad ending to the story is inspirational because you can still see Goodness and Joy in spite of your heartbreak -- and hip pain. You're an awesome testimony of the power of Christ in you!!!!

Rest well, my friend. You deserve it.

Can't wait to see you Friday!

jimmy said...

well... you're not only a finisher, your a winner to us.

GREAT job mom.:-)

albatross said...

No one can say you didn't give it you're full effort, Missy! Gee whiz, you even cried trying to get back on the course, what more could you have done?
Well, I'm proud of you, too. Definitely a winner. From now on, it'll be like, "What would Missy do?" when I have to face hard reality. . . ;)!
L

Anonymous said...

Missy
I am Carrie, we met at Albright Knox before the race and you were telling another girl there about your blog, so I looked you up.
I have read your story, and I think you may be wrong about where you stopped.
I know where the white medi-van was, and it was at mile 23, not mile 20.
Did you get your distance right? I think, based on your discription of the finish being right in your sight, and the medi-van guys, that you were at mile 23 when you dropped out.
I want you to get full credit for every mile you ran.
You made a great effort....don't sell yourself short, girl ;)
Even looking at the course map, mile 23 seems to be right where you were running based on visibility.
My husband says there were a bunch of cheerleaders at mile 20, no serious course support personell.
C
I have tried to leave a comment here, it's too complicated! See is this works.

Emily said...

Wow! I've been thinking for a long time what to say, and all I can think of is WOW! :) It's so amazing to me what you did, including all the books you've read!

Jessica Stowe said...

I cried reading this. Missy you are seriously amazing. Thanks for telling the tale, you're inspirational.

Missy said...

I am not amazing at all. But I cried when I read all these comments. I told my brother I feel like Eeyore, but it does really do me good to be loved even after failing. That's way better than being loved when you win.

Kelly Turk/e-mail said...

Missy,

I have just finished reading your blog about your marathon, and I just want to say that I think it’s AWESOME that you completed twenty miles of it!! You should feel so proud of yourself!! Even though you did not complete it as hoped, it was not for lack of motivation or determination, but a joint problem that is completely out of your control. You must have felt incredibly frustrated with your hip, but I am so impressed that your body has tolerated months of training and most of the actual race in spite of joint problems. There is so much for you to feel good about (and always remember in the Survival Method, according to Bill Glover, it is imperative to have a range of goals so you can meet some goals in the event that you do not meet all of your goals). How great for your kids to watch you go through this entire process!! You are an inspiration to all of us!! 2009 is sure to be an indelible year for your whole family!!

Much love to each of you!!

Kelly

Scott G. said...

Missy,
I've spent the morning getting caught up on your blog. Let me add late that I find your experiences and your writing about them very inspirational. You have done such a great job sharing an amazing and very brave adventure. I was so saddened by the news of the miscarriage, but very encouraged by your prospective. Thank you for sharing.